I think everyone will have ghostly experiences in their lifetime. Some are not very dramatic and will easily get passed on with excuses. Others are indisputably paranormal. In this three part series, I will reveal to you what things have convinced me there is another form of existence beyond the human realm.
I first read about lucid dreaming when I was 13. The idea of being in some control of my dreams intrigued me so much that I put it into practice. I got to a point where I could retain some conscious awareness that I was dreaming, and therefore experience it for an entertaining value. I didn't always do this, but most of the time I was successful. If a dream wasn't going the way I liked, I would change it. If it got real bad, I'd tell myself to wake up. Simple lucid dreaming experience.
A couple of years into this, at age 15, my dreams gave me a new experience. Something I wish I could forget. I was asleep, doing my thing with lucid dreaming, when at a moment I felt that I wasn't alone. My conscious part of myself was alarmed. I looked around my dream and found something in my dream, watching me. It was a dark and very ominous being. It had such a heavy feeling of dread that the sense emanated through everything around it. There was no mistaking that it was not a part of my standard dream. It was separate from me. It was watching me. After some work, I forced myself awake.
The being of dread was like a silhouette of a tall man. There was nothing distinct about its shape. Just blackness. A blackness that no light could pass through or illuminate. The only other feature was the eyes. They were a glowing gold. The light seemed to be coming from within.
The next night I experienced the same thing. This thing invaded my dream. I would be minding my own business, sleeping and dreaming, when again my consciousness felt the presence, and found the source of my terror. This shadow being was no good. I experienced this for several nights in a row, until one night when I was just refusing to fall asleep.
I didn't want another visitation. I was too afraid to fall asleep. This thing would not leave me alone and I felt that if I could break the chain of sleep for even one night, it would lose interest and go away. So I stayed up, reading in my room.
Then I felt it.
The heavy weight of dread was the first thing that caught my attention. I reluctantly looked in the direction of the source. Across to the other corner of my room was the dark shadow and the glowing eyes. My internal alarm spiked. I grabbed my blankets, covered myself with them, and went into a tight fetal position. Looking back I'm not entirely sure why I didn't run out of my room. Perhaps it was because that would have taken me physically closer to it, perhaps it is because I didn't want me to follow me out and pester my family. Rather I hid in the bed like a small child This thing terrified me.
While I hid I felt it watching me. Just standing there, filling me with fear, the same as it did while it was in my dreams. I closed my eyes so tight and prayed for sleep. I felt that sleep would at least put me in a level playing field. This thing did not belong in my physical space.
Eventually I escaped into sleep.
It never came back.
I didn't tell people about this experience for years as I feared this dark thing would sense I was talking about it and come back. I searched for answers as to what this being was. A simple 'demon' answer just wasn't good enough for me. I finally got to a point where I could tell a few people about it. A good friend of mine who was a Druid high priest said he felt it was a psychic vampire, and he told me it couldn't physically harm me, it was just trying to keep me from my potential. Still not certain this was it, I continued my research. I have come across stories of shadow people, but most aren't described quite like this. I did once come across a girl telling the same type of experience on a discussion forum, and she was the same age I was when I experienced it. I have gotten more comfortable sharing the story, but I still feel some uneasiness. Sharing this story is a big step for me. Perhaps it could help someone else out who has also experienced a visitation from a being like this.
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